So four years later, I finally am graduting high school. Goody. I thought it would never come!...but now it's hear, and it's like it was three days ago I was a freshman. WOW.

....so, there goes life. Now it's just the beginning.

Aprils 19th. Wow! such a long time.

Before I beging babbling. I read Zuri's xanga this morning, and I decided to check out this "Past Life Analysis" she posted through one of her friends. She's quite right. It is highly amusing and entertaining. lol...mine is actually quite...accurate? In regards to how I am now, of course. Lol. Check it out:

Your past life diagnosis:

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern South of Latin America around the year 975. Your profession was that of a entertainer, musician, poet or temple-dancer.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
You always liked to travel and to investigate. You could have been a detective or a spy.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
You should develop your talent for love, happiness and enthusiasm and you should distribute these feelings to all people.

Do you remember now?

Lol. How entertaining.

So back to news. School is over. I got a 2 on my APUSH test. :( oh well. I honestly didnt expect to pass it. At least I took the test. Alot of people dropped out last minute. Im taking chemistry at Cerritos College starting August 13th.
My senior classes consist of: AP Econ and Civics (By the way, Mr.Natividad is no longer teaching AP Civics), Alg II, English IV, Orchestra, AP Environmental Sci, Marching Band, and wind ensemble.

Mr Barr is no longer also teacher at Gahr next year. He is moving to Temecula. We are now in the chaotic situation of hiring a new director hopefully before band camp. We better get band camp. We need it. I auditioned for section leader (again_ and drum major for this coming year. I got Section leader, but once again I was disappointed to hear Juan Diego's name announced as our new 'leader'...I really hope he doesnt turn out like Shane did. I really do.

Theirs so much to say about my mom, my parents...geez. Im not even going to bother.

Memel is in Washington DC untill I believe July 26th, but is then right after going to New York City. I am unaware of when he returns. I do miss talking to him. Although oddly enough Ive found his brother Danny a friendly companion for the time being...lol! Well we spoke before he left, but you know..yeah.

I must be going. If I remember to do so, I will write back again later.

Their has been consistant talk about this Virginia Tech shooting throughout the week. It is quite devestating, dont get me wrong, but I personally had things that were just a tad more important to focus on. Its not that I dont care about it, I do; what it IS though, is that it didnt affect me directly, like Columbine did in the late '90s. A couple of my much older friends were victims there, and the school wasnt that far from my elementry school. However, today, the VTech tragady, did affect me directly.

I ran into my sophomore friend Dominik at school today, and since my ex and I broke up, I havnt been around that area half as much as I used to. I still go over to say hi to some other people, but for the most part, I have been forcing myself to stay away, mostly for confrontations with my ex reason. But I talked to Dominik, and he looked a bit upset, so I asked what was wrong. He mentioned the VTech incident, and he had told me that his cousin was a student there, and was one of the 37 people that was killed during the shooting. I felt bad. All this time, I have been thinking "lets please talk about something else?", but a great friend has been affected by such a terrible tragady. We sat down, and we talked about it. He said how upset he was, and how he wanted to go out to Virginia for the funeral, but wasnt sure if his parents would let him go, because he's missed enough school already, and him going would make him miss more. But he said it was for a personal family reason, so he expressed that he should have the right to go. I told him I agreed, but I also told him that sometimes we dont always get to be there for the important things, and one is just going to have to deal with it. I told him about what happened with my brother. And that I was directly affected by Columbine Shooting in Colorado in the 90's. I also told him that the summer after my freshman year, that 9 close people to me had died, in a period of three months. And I only went to one funeral. I wasnt trying to spill out my perosnal guts, but I was trying to let him know, that its not his fault if he cannot make it. I told him that although it is important to him, his cousin is dead, and he is still alive and well. He needs to take care of himself. The bell rang shortly after, and I gave him a hug, encouraging him to come talk to me if he needed anything, like someone to talk to or whatever. He said thanks, that he really appreciated my reassurance, and that he also appreciated the hug too. For the rest of the day, I have been thinking about all those things.

My cell phone bill hasnt been paid. I can receive things, (phone calls, text msgs), but I cannot send them, untill I pay my bill.

Matt text me today, but I missed it, and I didnt respond....Matt....that name just makes so many things run through my head right now. Lets just say that things have been better between us.

Wow...so much to do, so little time.

So the last time I wrote in here was December 30th. Its been awhile hasnt it?

I dont remember if I wrote about him or not. I had a boyfriend in November, but we broke up the day after Valentines day. He wasnt worth it. He lied to me. He faked loving me. He forced himself to indulge me. The reasons why are so complicating...I shall not bore you with such details. But do just let me say that it took longer than I anticipated for me to get over it. It would be loads easier if he would just back the ef off. Seriously.

My birthday was a bore. Not like I cared, but, some people did. I was at home sick, but my parents picked me up Chili's to go. Then school started again. Joy.

Band is doing well. This wednesday, we're performing at the Ross middle school fundraising concert, to help recruit freshman with hopes that they'll go to Gahr. The on the 30th, its festival, and on the 4th of April, its our spring concert.

My spring break begins April 6th, and I go back to school on the 16th (which is also my mom's birthday). Im planning to stay with Memel for a few days at his appartment in Irvine, to check out the campus, the classes, and just to hang out with him. How exciting!  

Speaking of Memel, he bought me an opera ticket, and we went to go see Mozart's Don Giovanni as a late birthday present. It was quite phonominal. I loved it. We're also going to the La Mirada Theatre on the 31st to see the La Mirada Symphony for a concert. That should be fun too. In May, we're going to LA Opera to see his favorite opera Porgy and Bess, by Gershwin (his favorite composer). It'll be a bit pricey....but it'll be fun nevertheless. And in July, we're going to the Hollywood Bowl to see John Williams (My favorite composer. lol). Now I have plenty of things to look foward to this year :)

This thursday, MUN is going to Berkeley for the BMUN confrence. Ive got the OAS (Organization of American States) committee (single delegate), as Guyana, debating Drug Trafficking, and Free Trade. Im like the only one at Gahr thats in a single delegate committee. Im super nervous, but Im super excited also. I hope I do well. Im meeting up Jackie Tang out there, since she goes to school out there at UC Berkeley. We've planned this for weeks. We're going to have so much fun. Lol....yea. Really exciting.

Uh...the family thing....way too much drama. If you really want to know whats going on, ask me.

Oh! I got my learners permit. I can drive! I get my license in august. Super cool.

Eh..ima go. Have reading for AP US to do...IM me ja?

Bronchitis, Sinus infection, my grandma in the hospital with a displaced leg, and I am consistantly being lectured about my lack of sleep...more like my lack of ability to find time to sleep, if that makes anyone feel better. *sigh* I know I need approx. 6-8 hours of sleep, but I dont sleep for a pretty damn good cause. Do not lecture me about my health. I know how to take care of myself, whether I show it or not. Ive been doing so at a very young age, and I do not need anyone to pretend to be my parents. I have enough adults doing that for me; I dont need my friends to do it, too. I will sleep when I have the oppurtunity.

I never believed in those silly New Years Resolutions, but I guess I actually stuck to one this year...I lost weight, and ive been able to keep it off. So I guess i'll keep this one: Lose more weight....well, if it works...

Whatever.

Happy New Year guys.

PS: Im 17 next friday.....yay?